I Love my older sister. There are times I don't, but usually those are times when I know she's right and I'm not ready to accept the truth. I think those are usually the times you don't like someone. When they're right and you're wrong. When they don't agree with you. When their opinion is something you don't wanna hear. We're all selfish in that way.
I would assume I am pretty selfish. I do a lot of things simply because I want to do them. This is what defines me as being young and without responsibility. I only have responsibility towards me, my life, my goals. The thing is, I'm not really selfish. If I was, I would have turned my back on my family long ago. I would have struck out on my own. But it's my responsibilty to my younger sisters and to my parents that has me stay here. Stuck.
I've been grappling with these reasons for a few weeks now, maybe months. Am I staying for them? Yes, for the sake of my poor parents who can't support themselves. Am I staying because I'm lazy and it's the easy path? Yes, of course. I'm beginning to see that it was more my laziness than my responsibility keeping me here. My laziness creating more excuses.

Sometimes I think too much for my own good