"people are stupid. its a fact"

The funny thing about life is that its just rediculous. It never stops to check how you're doing, it keeps going. Life is the energizer bunny, and we're just too human.
We constantly try to take charge of our destinies. "I'm going to eat better" "I'm going to save money"
Sure things change, but the further we think we travel the closer we become to uncovering how steady we are. How unchangable. Unmutable. How we've always been that person we thought we couldn't be.
Life's been predetermined, whether we want to admit that or not. Things happen for reasons that we might never know. But we're never going to have a calm moment where things stop for us to figure them out.
Figuring it all out I don't think is the point. How unchallenging, infulfilling life must be knowing all the answers.
How pointless.
How depressing knowing what you're in for. Powerless to change the course.
We're all 1st mates or passengers of our own ships. You're not the captain and you'll never see the dude behind the curtain.
Enjoy the scenery, the lush salty air. The dolphins swimming along side you.
Forget the destination.

Things always seem to work out on paper.

I've got to keep it together

I'm good at things I couldn't care less about.
But I'm not entirely terrible at the things I love. I believe I can do it. I can envision it along with the 2-car garage.
If I'm this wonderful without actually caring, think of how I'd be with something I care deeply for.
You guys are missing out.
I'd be the most fabulously devoted and awesome girlfriend/wife/mother ever.
If I could focus on any one thing ever I might just be able to harness and bottle this little magic trick I've got going in my brain.

I don't know why I was born to retain useless facts and observations. I don't know how I learned to be so perceptive. I just know they're valuable.

I'm getting excited just thinking about what I might possibly be able to accomplish if I let myself off my leash once in awhile.
I wish there was some outside force that would smack me and tell me to stop wasting time.
Why do I care about the status quo so much?