I'm up when you're down

I'm afraid I might always be this person.
I think I may finally be so scared of it that I need to do something about it.
Nothing just happens.
Its like that episode of 'friends'
"You gotta face your fear. You have a fear of heights, you go to the top of the building. You have a fear of bugs; ...get a bug. Stare down the barrel of the gun, pee into the wind"
Its about time I peed into the wind.
Being careful isn't interesting. It makes you wanna kill yourself.
I talk big, but I mean it.
Sad and lonely is pathetic.
Focused and determined is where its at.