Why do people with no personality and nothing of consequence score so big? Or i guess that they don't score big. But a Girl who may as well be a guy who models and has a fiance? How does this happen?
Her ugliness is not skin deep. On some level even I would appreciate her outer beauty, but she is dark on the inside, very dark. Turn her inside out and look at the disease. The lack of compassion and good sense. Rotten to the core.
Am I just shallow and mean for critisizing her? Is this why I can't get a decent guy to even CALL me? Because I want it so bad? Because i'm jealous? That's a terible reason.
If I had never mentioned her I'd be in the same place. I'm a pretty girl. I'm a nice person. I am fully deserving of all the good things in the world. I know I am.
I guess one can argue that everyone is entitled to some happiness. Everyone else is. I'm not more entitled than anyone else. I just want it more. And seeing someone who doesn't want it and doesn't appreciate it for what it is, makes me angry.
Am I a hypocrite for saying these things about her? Am I kicking myself down to her level?
I just want to understand how ugly people make me jealous.
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